Cold feet?

I believe I am getting cold feet about my summer readings. I really need the dicipline to read on my own. I have been reading snippets of many texts. I have the tools for this. If I really put the effort, I know I can get a lot from this.

But really. I do not have the dicipline to sit down in front of a book and read and read and then solve some problems to see if I actually learned something. I should have the dicipline, or whatever it is that you need, to learn by myself. If I could talk to somebody else. But most of the people I know are more advanced than me.

So I am going to see if this works: I am going to check my email in the morning, then turn off my computer and concentrate my attention on reading the first 5 chapters on Nakahara