Is it fake?

It is about time I bring some graduate school experiences to this blog, so let's all get worried about my future!

I have been thinking about it. It might not be the best thing to do now, since there are other things more pertinent at the current moment (like passing my classes with better grades than last semester), but I believe that I should think about it for a little while. The first thing in my head is

summer work.

This is related to the problem of

housing.

If I do not have a summer job, how am I going to pay for my housing? I cannot just walk to the YITP and tell everyone "Hey, give me a project for the summer and I will work on it". First of all, I do not anything about string theory yet, and my quantum field theory is very rudimentary. My special relativity is better, and my math skills are so and so, but still. I do not have a good reason why I want to do research in string theory. Is is fake? Of course it is, after I read (and watched) The Elegant Universe and Hyperspace I just wanted to learn about all this theories and work with them. But just a popular approach is not even close to what it actually is.

Have this semesters being a waste of time? I do not think so. Like professor Likharev said once, "This is the basic core knowledge of physics" (or maybe he said something along this lines...). I needed to take these classes, I really lacked that knowledge. So maybe I am rushing to much. The plan for next fall is to take course on field theory and relativity, and maybe the breadth courses and graduate lab. Which brings me to my second thing,

what to research?

Either I read on my own, or take courses on strings (which I will take at some point), but I need to learn about this topic before I even think of what particular aspect I would like to study. The thing is, time may not be enough. Money is a crucial part of my survival, which is a sad thing. Gotta go to class now...